JUNKYARD

i officially proclaim this a junkyard. yep.this shall now be my junkyard. and tarou-chan will be the caretaker. the background looks like a crypt. and tarou looks like a fallen angel guarding it.^^

 i'll still be blogging. but in my other blog. http://www.shi-ran.blogspot.com/

Posted by B at 05:43 AM as a stickied post | no need to say..

Life sucks and you know it. Nothing ever turns out
okay, nothing ever goes your way and while you
have to live this horrible life the gods are
laughing at you. The whole meaning with life,
according to you, is simply to die. But you
have not become this way just like that, you
have probably been decieved, betrayed and hurt
by people who meant alot to you in your past.
To you, life is not even bittersweet.


How do you see life? .::minor update::.
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Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway?


What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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Your connection with darkness is through your hate.
It's burning from the inside and you feel it
strongly everyday. All kinds of things make you
hate; the governmate, teachers/the boss,
students in school/work, family etc. Well, you
feel like the world and everyone in it hates
you, so you hate it and everyone back. You
probaly don't like changes since nothing good
ever comes out of them. Though your hate is
big, you can still have a soft spot in your
heart for someone. You're not numb or anything,
your problem lies in that you feel too much.
Life is too damn complicated, isn't it?


What is your connection with darkness? (pics)
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Your soul is dead.
You've probably been through one too many rough
times in your life which has eaten you up from
the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat
from since you just don't care anymore. Life is
meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The
good thing though is that you cant be hurt,
since you are so distant from the emotional
world. Love is something you dont understand or
just dont remember. If it was up to you, your
life would already be over, but it doesn't make
you suicidal. You are probably alone most of
the time, looking at the world with a blank
stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy
has simply gone away. What's left now is only
the shell of what used to be you.


How is your soul?(pics)
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


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Your element is Darkness. You are the truly evil
one with a black heart and no soul. People
avoid you since you cause so much trouble and
enjoy seeing others in pain. You would like
nothing more than to rule this earth and be
hailed by all. Everyone is annoying and stupid
anyway and are a waste of oxygen. You are
probably a cast-away from society and family
and have had a tough life where you learned to
live the hard way. Now you want revenge on your
pain and can no longer feel love nor care. You
do not wish to befriend anyone and you
certainly do not wish to be in love. As a
student of having learnt everything the hard
way, you tend to be manipulative when you want
something for yourself. In your head there is
only you that matters, and why shouldn't it? No
one cares about you so why should you? In
school you probably ditch classes and go
somewhere else instead of sitting in a
classroom. It is not that you are stupid,
because you're probably very smart, but
everyone annoy you. And having to sit in the
same room, breathing the same air as your
enemies is not desired by you. Rate and
message!


What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]
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You are dead inside and don't experience sadness
that often


Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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Others' lifes is your salvation. Listening to
people's problems is your way to escape
reality. You have an extraordinary wonderful
soul, but this soul is carrying the whole world
in its shoulders. With your understanding
restless nature, you are constantly looking for
answers.
~~I carry the whole world on my shoulders~~


What's your way to escape reality? What's your salvation?
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You hide behind The Cold Mask. you like to show
people that you don't care about any thing and
that people don't concern you but you only do
this because you are afraid that when you love
someone or get close to them, you might loose
them in the end, cuz loosing is your worst
nightmare, so you always tend to keep a
distance between you and the others, this way
you think you are safe.


What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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Your dark side is centered around Death. Anger
running through your veins, your soul is
confused between staying or leaving in this
pointless world. All you want is an open
creative mind to go with your lifestyle, no
conditions or judges, just loyalty to each
other, so you can finally live your perfect
exicting world you always wanted, life will
worth something. You will find what you want
when you believe in something more valuable
then death and when you appreciate your life.


What is the center of your dark core? (updated)
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Creativity. You are different from any one else,
you find your happiness when your mind works,
you like things that make you wonder, and
because you like to watch how things work some
say you are shy or unsociable, don't listen to
them, people like you are rare.


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Posted by B at 06:30 AM in quizzes | no need to say..

Really Long Survey (over 200)
Created by starsbleed2nite and taken 75662 times on bzoink!
What is your name?	jiabi
Are you named after anyone?	no
What's your screename?	dead end
Would you name a child of yours after you?	dead?maybe
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?	dead
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?	eien
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?	jia bi
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?	no
Basics
Your gender:	f
Straight/Gay/Bi:	pan
Single?	yes
If not, do you want to be?	dunno
Birthdate:	19/07
Your age:	17
Age you act:	depends
Age you wish you were:	1083
Your height:	155
Eye color:	brown
Happy with it?	no
Hair color:	dark brown
Happy with it?	not really
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:	left
Your living arrangement:	screwed up
Your family:	broken
Have any pets?	a cat n a dog.my cat recently lost its jaw n 1 of it legs...
Whats your job?	student
Piercings?	1 on each ear
Tattoos?	none
Obsessions?	black,jrock
Addictions?	painkillers
Do you speak another language?	jap,chinese
Have a favorite quote?	i named you,so you are mine.
Do you have a webpage?	yes
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?	i dont live,i just exist
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?	not really
Do you have any secrets?	plenty
Do you hate yourself?	yes
Do you like your handwriting?	no
Do you have any bad habits?	yes
What is the compliment you get from most people?	tt i'm v artistic
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?	dead end
What's your biggest fear?	being torn apart....
Can you sing?	no
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?	maybe
Are you a loner?	kinda
What are your #1 priorities in life?	myself
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?	not really
Are you a daredevil?	no
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?	losing myself
Are you passive or agressive?	both
Do you have a journal?	yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?	nothing n everything
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?	height
Do you think you are emotionally strong?	no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?	yes
Do you think life has been good so far?	...not really
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?	life sucks
What do you like the most about your body?	my hands
And least?	my legs
Do you think you are good looking?	no
Are you confident?	no
What is the fictional character you are most like?	dead end
Are you perceived wrongly?	maybe
Do You...
Smoke?	no
Do drugs?	maybe.if painkillers r included
Read the newspaper?	occassionally
Pray?	when in need
Go to church?	sometimes
Talk to strangers who IM you?	no
Sleep with stuffed animals?	seldom
Take walks in the rain?	when i can
Talk to people even though you hate them?	yes
Drive?	underaged
Like to drive fast?	na
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?	no
Hurt yourself?	sometimes.it takes my mind off.
Been out of the country?	yes
Eaten something that made other people sick?	ice-cream and miso soup together
Been in love?	no
Done drugs?	painkillers?
Gone skinny dipping?	no
Had a medical emergency?	i almost had a fit when i was 2
Had surgery?	no
Ran away from home?	yes
Played strip poker?	no
Gotten beaten up?	by my parents
Beaten someone up?	no
Been picked on?	yes
Been on stage?	yes
Slept outdoors?	camp
Thought about suicide?	yea,but pushed tt thot away immediately
Pulled an all nighter?	huh?
If yes, what is your record?	NA
Gone one day without food?	yea
Talked on the phone all night?	no
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?	my bro?
Slept all day?	yea
Killed someone?	no
Made out with a stranger?	no
Had sex with a stranger?	hell no!
Thought you're going crazy?	i m
Kissed the same sex?	wanli
Done anything sexual with the same sex?	not really
Been betrayed?	yes
Had a dream that came true?	maybe
Broken the law?	jay walk
Met a famous person?	just crossed paths
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?	ants
On purpose?	ants
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?	not really
Stolen anything?	not really
Been on radio/tv?	no
Been in a mosh-pit?	maybe
Had a nervous breakdown?	almost
Bungee jumped?	no
Had a dream that kept coming back?	maybe
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?	no
Miracles?	yes
Astrology?	no
Magic?	no
God?	yes
Satan?	yes
Santa?	no
Ghosts?	yes
Luck?	yes
Love at first sight?	yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?	kinda
Witches?	not really
Easter bunny?	no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?	maybe
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?	no
Do you wish on stars?	sometimes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?	yea
Do you think God has a gender?	maybe.most prob a guy
Do you believe in organized religion?	not really
Where do you think we go when we die?	heaven or hel
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?	yea
Who is your best friend?	misery,wx,eien
Who's the one person that knows most about you?	misery,wx,eien
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?	"hush..."
Your favourite inside joke?	none
Thing you're picked on most about?	loving black
Who's your longest known friend?	weiling,singyin,tim
Newest?	soon peng
Shyest?	pu sheng
Funniest?	soon peng
Sweetest?	esther
Closest?	misery,wx,eien,MU
Weirdest?	eien
Smartest?	wenqing
Ditziest?	sasa
Friends you miss being close to the most?	misery,wx,eien
Last person you talked to online?	wx
Who do you talk to most online?	misery,wx
Who are you on the phone with most?	sasa
Who do you trust most?	misery,wx,eien,MU
Who listens to your problems?	misery,wx,eien,MU
Who do you fight most with?	sis
Who's the nicest?	peipei
Who's the most outgoing?	shar
Who's the best singer?	iren
Who's on your shit-list?	shar,jk,dennis
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?	no
Who's your second family?	eien
Do you always feel understood?	sometimes
Who's the loudest friend?	shar.no more.*smirk*
Do you trust others easily?	not really
Who's house were you last at?	mine
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:	eien
Do your friends know you?	maybe
Friend that lives farthest away:	eien
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?	maybe
What do you find romantic?	being alone in a dark enclosed space
Turn-on?	dunno
Turn-off?	look at jk..
First kiss?	parents
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?	erm...someone get him away frm me
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going	yea
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out	no
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv	not really
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?	no
What is best about the opposite sex?	arms
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?	ego
What's the last present someone gave you?	keychain
Are you in love?	no
Do you consider your significant other hot?	NA
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?	qx
You wanted to kill?	shar
That you laughed at?	soon peng
That laughed at you?	sasa
That turned you on?	no one
You went shopping with?	sasa
That broke your heart?	no one
To disappoint you?	eien
To ask you out?	peipei
To make you cry?	family
To brighten up your day?	MU-gang
That you thought about?	sasa
You saw a movie with?	dun rmb
You talked to on the phone?	peipei
You talked to through IM/ICQ?	no one
You saw?	dad
You lost?	eien...
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?	no
Will it be with your significant other?	NA
Or some random person?	NA
What are you wearing right now?	SP freshman shirt n fbt
Body part you're touching right now:	no where
What are you worried about right now?	whisky,my cat
What book are you reading?	nth
What's on your mousepad?	nth
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:	pissed as usual,depressed,worried,
Are you bored?	yea
Are you tired?	when m i not?
Are you talking to anyone online?	no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?	no
Are you lonely or content?	i dunno...
Are you listening to music?	yea
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Posted by B at 01:43 AM in quizzes | no need to say..

my cat's seriously injured.





































my parents n sister had a fight.


























wad can i do?



































nothing...

































i care too...

Posted by B at 12:17 PM | no need to say..

broken.











screaming.











crying.


































































STOP!

































just stop......

Posted by B at 10:04 AM | no need to say..

Gray! Meaning-You are sad and depressed. You just
want to be alone and for everyone leave you
alone. On the plus side you dont let others
words get to you and you are very talented in
music art or school.

Hair-white or a dark shade of grey

Eyes-gray

Skin-pale

Mystical creature-Banshee ( a banshee is the spirit
of a beautiful maiden who died before her time.
Banshee's wail, not screech, just before the
death of someone. Banshee's have gray or green
cloaks, eyes reddened from the weeping that
they do and long streaming hair.)

Social statues -loner

Weapon-dagger


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Posted by B at 02:14 AM in quizzes | no need to say..

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through


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GREEN


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Posted by B at 11:13 AM in quizzes | no need to say..